High School Nostalgia

Yesterday I visited Union High School to shoot a video with the What’s Happening Tulsa crew. I walked in through the band hall, and was hit with the feels of nostalgia (all the feely feels that feel…feely). The halls had that same stale paper smell, with the same faint notes of someone practicing their violin for orchestra. Memories of running through the halls with the REP girls, cutting class in the dressing rooms, all came rushing back like it was yesterday. I don’t feel like I had an ordinary high school experience where you hate school, and some of the people in it. I absolutely loved it (with the exception of a few boring classes) I never had an enemies, just lots of friends. I was by no means popular and definitely fell into the nerd group but my friends ranged from emo, to cheerleader, to band geeks. My favorite group of people were the theater kids, we had cliques within the class but we all got along. I almost feel like I hit my peak in highschool, I was living my dream of being on stage! Nerves were a constant but so was excitement, there were never any boring days in rehearsal. Sadly I moved to San Antonio my junior year, and their theater class auditions had passed, and since then I’ve been out of the theater game for a while.

I wish there was a pause button in life, it seems after you graduate life goes at warp speed, and soon you’re 21, then 22, and 23, and you begin to think “whooooaa before I know it I’m going to be 30, what am I doing with my life??!!!” The adult world is different than I thought it would be as I walked across the stage receiving my diploma at 17, it’s been filled with heart ache, and slaps to the face of reality. I always thought I would be so much farther in my life by now, however it was about two years ago that I realized I can take back control of my life, and go for my dreams. Sometimes the adult world can discourage me, but I always have to pick myself back up and keep on going. Anyways I hope you lovely human souls are having a fantastic day, and don’t forget…. Don’t let the Muggles get you down 🙂

– A


30 Challenge Complete

IMG_1811I know that this is quite a few days late but nevertheless here it is. I did not weigh myself when i started or ended because that is not what I’m trying to focus on. I’m focusing on losing fat and gaining muscle. This has also helped me to love my body a little bit more, just the way it is. All the little curves that I hated I found that I didn’t hate as much because I’ve been working on my fitness (he’s my witness, fergalicious) and eating healthier. Now my diet hasn’t been perfect by any means. Extreme diets don’t work for me because I binge like crazy, so a balanced diet is perfect for me. However with a low budget I still ate pizza (which is free from my dad’s work lol) and ate spaghetti, and a couple other “non healthy things” but I tried to balance it out whenever I could. Basically trying to choose between the lesser of two evils ha. But even still I made progress, and now I have several jobs, one with very steady income, so buying healthy groceries should not be a problem, which I am super stoked about. I love my smoothies!!!

But i definitely think that us girls should go easier on ourselves. We see all these models and celebrities, and not only are they constantly photoshopped in pictures, they can afford awesome personal trainers, and liposuction, and even still in candids they look like normal people with an imperfect body. And as long as you are working to better yourself, whether it be to decide to choose water instead of coke, or deciding to run the color run, be happy about yourself and your body 😀